beauty, fun, goals, Sassy

week 1: here I am

Has everyone watched the movie “Dumplin” on Netflix yet? If not, you totally should. You’ll walk away smiley AND have new appreciation for Dolly Parton. I read the book last year and loved it and couldn’t wait for the movie. I watched it with my mom and grandma over Christmas and it was nice. (The title of my post, “Here I Am” is a song from the movie.) Also…2019 HERE I AM!

So far this year started with the flu. That wasn’t really the way I was hoping to ring in a brand new year, but it is what it is. Sadly. I’m happy to report that I’m feeling loads better now. I’m also happy to report that of the goals I set for myself for the new year, most of them I’ve been able to keep up so far. Yeah, yeah, one week in but consistency has to start somewhere. I haven’t been able to work on the diet/exercise front yet. The nasty flu mentioned previously and the boyfriend being in town has pushed that back a bit. I’m all set to go on Monday, full steam.

In the meantime, I thought I’d tell you some things that are working for me and some things I’m loving right now.

  • Agenda – I kind of love this app a lot. I want to be a paper journal/planner person. I give it a try every year because paper planners are so pretty. Sadly it doesn’t take me very long to give it up because I’m just too digital. This app helps me bring my paper loving things into a digital world. I set up a bullet journal within Agenda. Works fantastic. Using this app, combined with Things 3 and Evernote…(which I’m sure could all be combined to one app to do all things but I have a system so let me be)…makes me a productive powerhouse.
  • Theraflu – My dad reminded me of this medicine this week as I’ve been sick. It helped so much! Keep it in mind if any of you peeps start feeling under the
  • An American Marriage by Tayari Jones: Read this while on vacation these last two weeks. Great read. It will draw you in.
  • Camilla Cleansing Oil – It’s no secret I’m OBSESSED with skincare. I think if I could do life over again I’d train to be an esthetician. I do a lot of reading and researching on products and methods and it has dramatically changed my skin over the last year. One of the tips I learned, that I will now never not do, is the double cleanse. BEST. THING. EVER. This cleansing oil is so luxurious for your oil cleanse that it feels like you’re having a fancy facial massage. Treat yo self.

Have a great weekend everyone!

TODAY I LOVE: The sun is shining bright out my window!
SONG OF THE DAY: “Here I Am” by Dolly Parton and Sia

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beauty, emotions, Fitness, health

really real reality

Shootout.jpg.e2ceda5e6854df2c8893abada78336abIf you’ve followed me for very long at all, I write a lot about my weight, exercise, diet, etc.  I like these things.  I like seeing progress and I hate admitting failure.  However, like two sides to any coin you’re always going to have them both.  Last year it was success upon success in my weight-loss and fitness journey.  This year is a different story.

Life has happened to me in a big way this year.  I was depressed for quite a long time and stressed even longer.  Even so, I did the very best I could with my macro guidelines and I exercised way more than not.  Still…no change.  We’ve lowered calories, changed macros, changed again, added and added and added cardio…no change.  I haven’t gained it all back, but I’ve gained this year.  Many of my wins last year have been overturned.  It’s hard not to say, “Sarah, if you just cut your calories more, you have to lost weight.”  Um, yeah, no.  I’ve done that.  I can’t really cut anymore or my body will definitely freak out.

To say that it is defeating is the most gigantic understatement you can utter.  I’m leaving for vacation in a few short weeks and this is NOT the shape I wanted to be in for it.  My poor roommate has had to deal with my meltdowns this week especially as I’m trying to buy a dress for a wedding and purchase clothes for the beach.

WHY JUST WHY.

And sadly, the long and the short of it is this…we don’t know.  Maybe my body is tired of dieting.  Maybe my body has some weird hormone things (hello STRESS) that are hijacking all the good things I’m doing.  Maybe I just need a reset and a change.  Maybe I need rest.  Who the hell knows.

So.  Really real reality.  I’m staring at my beach vacation straight in the eye.  I’m many pounds heavier than I planned.  In my mind it is kind of like one of those old outside-the-OK-corral standoffs.  Wyatt Earp staring down his opponent (before he went crazy – important fact.)  Am I going to let my perception of how I needed to be ruin my vacation?    As much as it is a struggle to say – no.  I’m not going to let it win.

I’m me.  Despite the outside package and wrappings, I’m quite awesome.   I can lift very heavy things and put them back down.  I have great hair.  My skincare routine is longer than some people’s showers and I love it.   I can spout random music facts on a whim.  I have a really awesome cat.  The older I get I’m finding joy in being myself and surprising people who expect something different.  I smile a lot and I like to make other people smile too.  My fella loves me.  I’m going to PARADISE.

When I wrap my head around all those great things, how can I let a stubborn body beat me?  It is all in my PERCEPTION of me.  And the great thing is…I can work on changing that.  It might not change how my clothes fit or the number on the scale, but if I can find happiness in my happies until the tide turns, the coin flips, or my body decides to listen, well, that’s a big win.  I’ll dip back into my college days, and all those psychology/counseling classes:  I’m taking a mental picture and I’m reframing it so I see it differently.

If you’re in the same spot I am…take stock and reframe the shot.  It is a by-the-minute battle, but if I can do it then you can too.

TODAY I LOVE: Peach & Lily.  I should just sign my paycheck over.

 

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beauty, health

beauty loves: vol. 1

At the beginning of this year my dad had a LARGE sore cut out of his face that turned out to be skin cancer.  They cut him from ear to chin; diagonally across the cheek.  It was so scary and impacted me more than I let on.  Couple that with the fact that I’m turning 38 years old in October, well, skin care is at the very forefront of my mind.

I’m not an esthetician but oh if I had it to do over I think I might have chosen that path.  I’m obsessed with this stuff right now.  I did quite a lot of research before I chose the path I wanted to follow with my own skin.  Since April I have been strictly following the k-beauty methods.  K-beauty involves many steps: oil cleanse, water cleanse, exfoliator, toner, essence, serum, sheet mask, eye cream, moisturizer, sunscreen.  Twice a day.  You don’t do all those steps everyday, but most of them.  I’ve seen such a marked difference in my face that I thought I would share some of my current beauty loves.

  • Klavuu Pearlsation Divine Pearl Cleansing Oil: One of the things from the k-beauty routine that I will NEVER stop from here on out is the oil cleanse.  This takes the place of any makeup remover.  The oil, which smells amazing, just melts the makeup off.  It also feels like a mini-massage.  And no, contrary to what you might assume, it does not cause breakouts.
  • Unseen Sunscreen: THIS STUFF ROCKS.  I use it on my face, it feels like a primer, and it doesn’t leave any streaks.  Do yourself a favor and buy this stuff now.
  • Egg Cream Mask Pore Tightening: I have a lot of sheet masks that I love these days.  I’m having so much fun trying them out.  This sheet mask, however, I’ve bought more than once.  I see such a difference after using it.
  • Lala Retro Whipped Cream: I can’t give up two of my Drunk Elephant products and this is one of them.  I love this moisturizer.  I use it as my night cream.  It’s thick and luxurious but absorbs quickly.
  • Be the Skin Non-Stimulus Face Polisher: I have sensitive skin and this exfoliator does it’s job and doesn’t disrupt my face.  It’s gentle but thorough.  It is one of my favorite products these days.  I use it twice a week.
  • L’Occitane Almond Shower Oil: Oooooh boy.  This smells delightful, creates a gentle lather, and is fantastic to shave with in the shower.  You exit the shower without feeling like your skin has dried out.

I’ve got some new things coming in this week that I’ve been eagerly waiting on for months.  If they are winners I’ll let you know.  🙂

If I can give you any encouragement…take care of your skin.  I’m working on improving the rest of the skin on my body now.  If I had only listened to all the things my grandmother told me when I was a girl I wouldn’t have such an uphill battle now.  WEAR SUNSCREEN.   It doesn’t matter what treatments or fancy creams you put on your skin if you’re not wearing sunscreen.

Enjoy!

TODAY I LOVE: not wearing makeup because my skin is happy.  🙂

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