Sometimes I wonder why I still blog. I mean, it is kind of a dying thing. But then I start writing and I remember that sometimes an online journal can be healing. So I think that is where I am today. I don't know what I need to say, but I need to say it. … Continue reading something to hold onto
Tag: emotions
the key
Today I'm going to tell you all a little story about a key. Honestly, I'd meant to write about it a long time ago, but all the drama involving my eye overshadowed this tale. I probably wouldn't be writing about it now, however, it's been so interesting watching people get up the courage to ask … Continue reading the key
2019 in review
A very dear friend of mine, Willie, shared this with me after one of my most raw posts this past year. I've kept this as a reminder that I vowed to be real and not fake, no matter the cost. It's special to me. I was almost dreading writing this post. I've done it every … Continue reading 2019 in review
Black coffee and honesty
One of my compromises with myself when I started this blog (in deference to my last one) was to be completely honest. You get the good and the bad, the ups and downs, the wins and the losses. Why be fake? Why try to trick everyone into believing that life is rosy all the time … Continue reading Black coffee and honesty
the flash drive
Be softer with you. You are a breathing thing. A memory to someone. A home to a life. -Nayyirah Waheed Today has been hard. I guess if I'm being honest, the moment the calendar rolled over to April it has been one tough day after another. April is the month that my ex-husband remarries. While … Continue reading the flash drive
Climbing again
It is Friday night and I'm sitting here on my sofa, having a cup of sleepy tea, and watching Grace & Frankie (again) on the TV. (Side note: I'm SO excited for Season 4 which comes out next week.) ANYWAY. I got off work this afternoon and came home and deep cleaned my living room. … Continue reading Climbing again
2018
What. A. Year. I wish I could say 2017 was the most amazing year I've ever had, but that would be a lie. It did have some very high points. I did things that I'm supremely proud of, especially now. It had some downs too...but you know what? While those times were super crappy, I … Continue reading 2018
Choosing joy.
I'm gonna be candid. It's been a hell of a few days. I know I go into a lot of things here but all the details that sent me off the deep end are going to remain in my secret journal not my public one. When there are other people involved it gets tricky and … Continue reading Choosing joy.
the great depression
138 day move streak. 4 perfect months. 21 pounds and 23 inches lost. I've had quite the string of accomplishments lately. I'm not trying to brag; I'm just proud of myself. That's a lot. I had (have) a long way to go. I started this year wanting to be healthier not only physically, but mentally … Continue reading the great depression
really moving on
You guys, I really debated if I was going to post this one or not. It's likely too personal, too raw, and too real. (It's been sitting in my drafts for days and days.) But you know what? I decided to hit publish. Because like I said several posts ago, not every day is bright … Continue reading really moving on
