random friday stuff: vol 8

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My life lately has definitely turned into one big ball of randomness. And you know what? I’m kinda ok with it. Well, most of it. Welcome to some random!

  • I really need to make some time to read. I miss it. I haven’t taken a lunch at work in….well, way too long (and I usually read during it), and I’ve kept myself busy in the evenings. I’m off all next week so fingers crossed my eye cooperates and I can dive into another place and time.
  • Dating is hard and I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m way too naive for all of this.
  • I’m still obsessed with Foy Vance. He’s at the very top of my list to see if he ever tours near me.
  • I found the BEST pair of tights the other day. They are thick and so soft and warm. I recoiled at the price, but I can see them lasting for quite a long time. If you need a pair, check these out.
  • Because driving is particularly difficult for me, I haven’t been home to see my family in a couple of months. I can’t wait to see them next week! I always stay at my grandma’s house when I go (she’s my favorite human). I’m from such a tiny, off-the-beaten-path town that at night…it’s magical. It’s so dark you can see every star and so quiet you can hear every bird and bug. The moon GLOWS. I sleep in this little room, upstairs, with the window open. My heart explodes a little every time. Peace and contentment. It grounds me.
  • I want to subscribe to Disney+ so badly, but I already have several streaming services and I’m about 50 show behind that I need to watch. BUT DISNEY.
  • Gym life has dwindled to nothing as my depth perception is in the toilet. Lately I’ve been doing yoga at home. I found an app I really like that isn’t expensive. Anyway, I’m really loving yoga (as I’ve said before) but there are several poses that are just terrible awful and I’m sure I’m doing it wrong because they hurt. I have a running list: dolphin, camel, wheel, and puppy dog pose. No, nope, not happening. I think next week I’ll try to get back to the gym for at least some boring stationary cardio. I mean, I can’t fall off a stationary bike, can I?
  • I can’t wait for my next hair appointment because I need a lot more red in my hair. Gimme.

Have a wonderful weekend, my kind friends. Find a way to smile in this random world.

TODAY I LOVE: tacos (I had one the other night and it was delightful)
SONG OF THE DAY: “Where Does the Good Go” by Sleeping at Last (cover)


I changed my hair color this week. I needed change. I am obsessed with it. Red!

Hello all. I know I’ve been MIA the last several weeks and I’m sorry for that. Life has been happening.

Lots of life has been happening. Real life with hard emotions, big decisions, love, loss, and forging forward. And with all that stuff, I just needed to turn inward and work through it. I’m still working through it and that’s ok. At any rate, I don’t want to talk about it, but it all leads me to where I am this day.

The anxiety/stress/emotional drain of all the things made all my symptoms (acid, nausea, etc.) return. Therefore, as food as been constantly the same with no changes in 4 weeks, I think it is safe to say my issues are something else (not entirely food related.) So, although this extreme diet didn’t give me the results I was ultimately looking for (solving my health issues), it DID help me know that with that variable constant, it is something else in my body that is wrong.

I’ve slowly started adding some food back into the rotation. I cannot tell you how very wonderful that first cup of coffee tasted. Best cuppa ever. It does, however, give me heartburn. It has been fascinating adding food back in and monitoring what it does to me. For instance, either gluten OR sugar make my sinuses stuff right up and make it hard to breathe. I ate at cookie and within an hour my sinuses were swollen. WEIRD. I haven’t had another one to test it again.

My next steps on my health journey will be to get back in touch with my doctor and see what’s up. Ulcer? Overactive hiatal hernia? Yeah, I don’t know. I do know this: I have GOT to get my stress/anxiety under control and managed.

I added yoga into the mix this week. I’ve never really given yoga fair shake and I kinda feel bad about that. I found an app that has yoga “classes” and I’m hoping by adding this at the end of my day and focusing on the breathing and the mindset, it will help me mentally just as much as physically. I’m about as flexible as a concrete pole, so we shall see how this goes. ūüėÄ I’ve been practicing this habit for a week now and I can definitely say it has helped me mentally. I do it right when I get home from work, consciously trying to let out the bad and in the good and LET. THINGS. GO.

Thanks for hanging with me. I still have the note “Not Today” taped to one of my computer monitors at work. I’ve been staring at it a lot this week, remembering why I put it there in the first place. Not Today. Not Today. Today I will not give into all the feelings that brought me to the bottom.

TODAY I LOVE: savasana (corpse pose in yoga)…I can do this one.
SONG OF THE DAY: “God Willing and the Creek Don’t Rise” by Ray LaMontagne and The Pariah Dogs

all things may

We are almost halfway through this year. ¬†I hate that my mom was right, that time really does go faster the older you get. ¬†So yeah, May is over (one more day anyway.) ¬†Let’s see how this month broke down for me:

HEALTH: I’m happy to report I was 100% on my macros everyday. ¬†I was never over, although there were a few days that I was under. ¬†I didn’t miss a single mandatory workout (lifting), and only missed one barre class from my bonus workouts. ¬†Win! And it paid off: since the end of January I’m down 21 pounds and 23 inches. ¬†I haven’t starved myself and I don’t workout hours and hours everyday. ¬†The actual scale number is slowing down in it’s decreases, but I’m getting muscle and it looks so much better. ¬†I’m happy with it.

For grins, I almost 100% cut out gluten during the month. ¬†(I still maintained eating my Ezekiel bread every morning. ¬†Not giving that up.) ¬†Other than that, I was gluten free. ¬†I really wanted to see if it made any difference in my belly bloat. ¬†It taught me a couple of things. First, I really don’t eat that much gluten to begin with. ¬†It wasn’t hard to not eat it. ¬†Second, I had very thin crust pizza last night (yes, I considered May over for the most part starting yesterday), and it made my food belly (that I’ve affectionately named Ethel) go CRAZY. ¬†Hello bloat city. ¬†All that said, I think I’m going to try to maintain little gluten/wheat when I have other options available. ¬† Because it did prove to me that it does make me puff up like a fish.

I did get the best compliment this morning. ¬†Two girls who are not regulars at the gym came up to me as I was lifting. ¬†They told me they hadn’t been in in a while and it’s been a bit since they’d seen me. ¬†And they said I looked amazing! ¬†Asked me how much I’d lost and said they could really tell I was working hard. ¬†Anyway, it was so great to hear! ¬†Onward to June. ¬†ūüôā

RANDOM: ¬†Let’s see…I got my hair done. ¬†Only a trim off the ends, but went another step towards my blonde goal. ¬†To all of you naysayers out there, it really is lighter! ¬†I can prove it. ¬†My hair is so dark it takes a long time to get to blonde. ¬† As far as other beauty stuff, I’ve watched way too many makeup tutorials because now I keep wanting to dip my toe in these strange eye combinations. ¬†Today I’m wearing navy and gold. ¬†Yep. ¬†It is disappointing to report that my eyebrows are still hopeless. ¬†I’m not giving up.

Ok, so my hair isn’t fixed in either photo (ignore that). ¬†And also ignore the fact that in the second photo I’m getting ready for bed and have no make up and my glasses on. ¬†Hey, real life folks. ¬†You can’t ALWAYS be a beauty queen. ¬†ūüôā¬†

I’m totally and completely obsessed with blackberries right now. The fruit, not the phone. ¬†Cannot. Get. Enough.

I’ve read 3 books and am currently diving back into the Tudor dynasty as written by the awesome Philippa¬†Gregory. ¬†I think there are 8-9 books total. ¬†It’s going to take me a while.

I finished season 3 of How to Get Away with Murder.  HOLY SMOKES.  That show is on fire.  I very rarely guess how it is going to end.

Work has been crazy nut-job busy.

I think that’s enough for now. ¬†All in all, May wasn’t so bad on me. ¬†I didn’t go crazy. ¬†I didn’t blow up at anyone. ¬†I think I maybe only cried 3 times or so. ¬†That’s a win, folks.

How was your May?

TODAY I LOVE: the song “Every Monday” by Marvelous 3 (an oldie but goodie. ¬†Takes me back to college.)

random friday stuff: vol 3

Hey, hey hey…it’s Friday! ¬†Here are some things that have been keeping me giggling or interested for the last few weeks:

  • Last week I was listening to a random apple playlist while I was working. ¬†It played an OLD country song (which I never listen to) and oh my goodness. ¬†It zapped me right back to my childhood. ¬†I was raised in a tiny country town in the middle of nowhere. ¬†And yes, little Sarah even had a belt with her name on the back and boots. ¬†Anyway, that one song made me hunt up some of the other old country gems I remember hearing when I was a little, hanging out in my dad’s shop while he worked, and dancing. ¬†Should you want to listen to what I found, check it out here.
  • If you haven’t read the book to The Handmaid’s Tale, you should. ¬†You should also check out the new series on Hulu of the same name. ¬†HOLY SMOKES. ¬†First off, Elisabeth Moss is an incredible actress and she plays Offred to perfection. ¬†I’m addicted.
  • Really funny cats. ¬†I mean, come on.
  • I GET MY HAIR DONE TODAY. ¬†Yes, that statement warranted all caps. ¬†I only go every 12ish weeks and it is in desperate need of some loving TLC. ¬†My hair gal is a genius of color and I just can’t wait to let her at it. ¬†If you’re in the SGF area, you really need to check out¬†Erin Wheaton at Blu Skies Salon!
  • So I started playing the Sims again. ¬†Don’t worry, I’m a very fair ruler.
  • I’ve been cheating on coffee with hot tea every now and again. ¬†Don’t tell.
  • I’m also having a love affair with sleep. ¬†We can’t seem to get enough of each other.

TODAY I LOVE:¬†the vintage Kansas City Royals shirt I’m wearing today.