random friday stuff: vol 8

This comic brings me such joy. Check him out at Nathan Strange Planet.

My life lately has definitely turned into one big ball of randomness. And you know what? I’m kinda ok with it. Well, most of it. Welcome to some random!

  • I really need to make some time to read. I miss it. I haven’t taken a lunch at work in….well, way too long (and I usually read during it), and I’ve kept myself busy in the evenings. I’m off all next week so fingers crossed my eye cooperates and I can dive into another place and time.
  • Dating is hard and I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m way too naive for all of this.
  • I’m still obsessed with Foy Vance. He’s at the very top of my list to see if he ever tours near me.
  • I found the BEST pair of tights the other day. They are thick and so soft and warm. I recoiled at the price, but I can see them lasting for quite a long time. If you need a pair, check these out.
  • Because driving is particularly difficult for me, I haven’t been home to see my family in a couple of months. I can’t wait to see them next week! I always stay at my grandma’s house when I go (she’s my favorite human). I’m from such a tiny, off-the-beaten-path town that at night…it’s magical. It’s so dark you can see every star and so quiet you can hear every bird and bug. The moon GLOWS. I sleep in this little room, upstairs, with the window open. My heart explodes a little every time. Peace and contentment. It grounds me.
  • I want to subscribe to Disney+ so badly, but I already have several streaming services and I’m about 50 show behind that I need to watch. BUT DISNEY.
  • Gym life has dwindled to nothing as my depth perception is in the toilet. Lately I’ve been doing yoga at home. I found an app I really like that isn’t expensive. Anyway, I’m really loving yoga (as I’ve said before) but there are several poses that are just terrible awful and I’m sure I’m doing it wrong because they hurt. I have a running list: dolphin, camel, wheel, and puppy dog pose. No, nope, not happening. I think next week I’ll try to get back to the gym for at least some boring stationary cardio. I mean, I can’t fall off a stationary bike, can I?
  • I can’t wait for my next hair appointment because I need a lot more red in my hair. Gimme.

Have a wonderful weekend, my kind friends. Find a way to smile in this random world.

TODAY I LOVE: tacos (I had one the other night and it was delightful)
SONG OF THE DAY: “Where Does the Good Go” by Sleeping at Last (cover)

goals, direction, and starting to see light.

Seeing the light arriving

Greetings, my friends! And Happy Sunday!

I hope everyone is having a great and relaxing weekend. It has been raining off and on yesterday and today and honestly it’s been nice to chill for a hot minute. I did quite a bit of socializing this week and was oh-so-ready for a day to be a hermit and recharge.

I do apologize that my writing has been so sporadic lately. I certainly didn’t intend for this to blog to only be used when I’m feeling down in the dumps. Now that I’ve made great strides crawling out of the dark place, I guess I’m trying to decide which direction to take this thing now.

First things first, some updates. This week will be Week 6 of my elimination diet. As I said in my last post, I’ve been adding things in and taking them out for a few weeks now. Even though I do believe now that most of my health issues are being caused by something other than food, it has been very enlightening to find out what foods do cause a reaction of any kind in my body. I *think* I’ve found out this week that dairy actually increases my heartburn. This makes me very sad, as cheese is practically one of my love languages. Anyway, the experiment continues. After that first week I’ve managed to maintain my calories at my normal level. Cravings are gone. I sleep well (for the most part). I don’t have a headache everyday. All that to say, I’m going to keep this experiment going for a while.

Beginning September I started running again. I’ve also added in yoga (in addition to strength training.) I’m really, really enjoying it. I’m not sure what finally made the switch flip in my brain, but I’m looking forward to workouts again rather than seeing them as a chore. I’m also looking forward to setting some goals for each of those areas for October. I haven’t set any kind of athletic goal in AGES! This is great mental progress for me.

So, where do I go from here? Someone told me this morning, “Every time I see you you’re always smiling! It makes me smile.” I guarantee the gal who said it had no idea how much it effected me, and probably not even for the reason that you’d imagine. I think maybe after all these months I’m finally figuring out that it really is all up to me on my perspective of things. I’m not in control of anything and I need to stop trying to grapple for it like a lifeline. I can’t control what people think of me, I can rarely control what happens to me. The one thing I can control? My perspective. If I can do that then the lows won’t be so low. The highs are even higher. And every thing isn’t nearly so dark. Life is quite a lot sweeter when you let it happen.

I’m looking forward to this week. I’m going home this weekend for our fall festival. I haven’t been back to it in probably 15+ years. This would normally probably cause me anxiety…but it’s going to be ok. I’m going to choose to look at is as an opportunity to enjoy some folks I haven’t seen in quite some time. Plus the parade! Band nerds unite! What are you looking forward to this week?

TODAY I LOVE: dry shampoo (seriously gals, am I right?!)
SONG OF THE DAY: “Alice from Dallas” by Foy Vance